Some… of my Story
Sacred Guide. Gratitude Girl. Meaning Maker.
Living a divine life rooted in wonder.
I grew up in what I believe a strict home and believed what I was taught was the truth. It served me then, not so much now. I lost my dad to cancer when I was 17 years old, he died on his 38th birthday. I believe this is when I saw life as precious. You never know how much time you get, I want to make it matter.
I married my high school love, Dave. We lost our first son, Calvin, early in our marriage. I also had an ectopic pregnancy when I was 20 and miscarried baby EM after losing Calvin. We now have 3 beautiful and healthy children – Samantha, Sevren and Kate. Dave and I separated just before my 37th birthday. My dad dying on his 38th birthday made me ask the question, “if I had a year left to live is this the way I want to live it?” It was a resounding NO.
I had no intention of reconciling. The Divine had another plan. Nine months later we began working on us after we both took a good long hard look at ourselves. I feel like I fell in love for the first time. Since reconciling, our relationship is a loving partnership. I am beyond blessed!!
Through the years I found myself in search of something more yet feeling guilty. I had the devoted husband, healthy children, warm home, nice cars – what was wrong? I was taking care of everyone else and found I didnʼt love or know myself, and I didnʼt even realize it. Once I discovered this, I started a relationship with myself and the Divine again. Now, I can’t imagine life without my Higher Power and unconditional love. From this place I can love others deeply, where they are. And who knew, how I treat myself is a reflection of how I treat others… Sacred. Holy. Meaningful.
That being said, 2015 surprised me, it was hard. I’m still wading through the muck AND can see the beauty. Yes, even with all this knowledge and practice in living a soulful and sacred life, life happens. I went through a deep depression, had chronic back pain—later diagnosed as degenerative disc disease, watched my oldest child struggle through life challenges, and lost my hope in women’s circles after a bad experience. Isn’t it refreshing to know we are all human. I found myself saying, “I don’t feel like me, this isn’t me!” to my husband often. Oh the emotions… and then I reached out. I let myself be held and supported. I began to heal.
Life is my medicine. I do my best to notice what I need and ask for I want. I continue to create meaning, make memories, and generally slow down – I don’t want to miss a thing! But I do and that’s ok.
Thank you for stopping by, maybe you too are slowing down, seeing beauty, and creating meaning. Whatever brought you here, hello, it’s lovely to meet you.
ps~ one of my favorite exercises I did early on in my coaching career was discover my Style Statement, take a peek here! To this day it hasn’t changed. I deeply connect to my Style Statement, Natural Expressive.
Some fun things about me…
Playing practical (good humored) jokes on each other makes me laugh. The element of surprise. My husband and kids donʼt always think itʼs as funny.
The Voice makes me cry. The talent, the dreams, the goosebumps.
I love the sun on my back, being barefoot, dirty feet, sitting by fires, laughter and music… just a few of my many loves.
My gift is seeing beauty, believing in possibility, and trusting in the good—or as my good friend says “living a divine life rooted in wonder”
I am always taking a course and reading a book, I can’t get enough.
One regret dear world, that I am determined not to have
when I am lying on my deathbed
is that I did not kiss you enough. ~Hafiz
Iʼve felt most fulfilled in positions where I was helping others, some of my trainings and experiences:
- 2008 Martha Beck (MBI) Life Coach Training
- 2009 got Certified with MBI
- 2011 got my Master Certification with MBI
- 2012 MindBody Coach Training with Anamsong
- 2013 Reiki Master Certification
- 2013 Hospice Volunteer Training through EvergreenHealth Hospice
- 2014 Shift Your Grief with Martha Jo Atkins PhD
- 2014 Priestess Studies with Lisa Michaels and Vanessa Sage PhD
- 2016 – 2018 Earth Medicine School (1, 2, 3) with Pixie Lighthorse
- 2017 INELDA End of Life Doula training
- 2017-2019: 2 year Anamcara Apprenticeship Program through The Sacred Art of Living