If not now, when?
I heard… we need to be held to be healed. When I had the courage to reach out and ask for help, usually after I struggled and tried to do it on my own, healing happened. It happened much faster than when I trudged through on my own—trying to figure it out, thinking instead of feeling my hurt, anger, grief, depression.
And if you find you’ve been trying to do it on your own. That’s ok. Be kind and compassionate to yourself. Then, tune in… notice what you need then ask for what you want.
Have you noticed how tomorrow turns into next week, next week turns into next month, and before you know it, a year has gone by. My love, if not now, when? You are not alone. I am here to walk this journey with you.
My favorite thing to do is help you walk hand-in-hand with love, compassion, and courage as you navigate life, grief, death. Let’s heal what needs to be healed, celebrate what hasn’t been celebrated, and plant the seeds of tomorrow, today.
I see you. I hear you. I love you.
Sacred Guide. Gratitude Girl. Meaning Maker.
Living a divine life rooted in wonder.
I grew up in what I believe a strict home and believed what I was taught was the truth. It served me then, not so much now. I lost my dad to cancer when I was 17 years old, he died on his 38th birthday. I believe this is when I saw life as precious. You never know when how much time you get, so I wanted to make it matter. My dad always breathed belief in me and told me I could do anything I set my mind to. As an adult, my mom has been my biggest cheerleader.
I married my high school love, Dave. We lost our first son, Calvin, early in our marriage. I also had an ectopic pregnancy when I was 20 and miscarried baby EM after losing Calvin. We now have 3 beautiful and healthy children – Samantha, Sevren and Kate. Dave and I separated just before my 37th birthday. My dad dying on his 38th birthday made me ask the question, “if I had a year left to live is this the way I want to live it?” It was a resounding NO. I had no intention of reconciling. The Divine had another plan. Nine months later we began working on us after we both took a good long hard look at ourselves. I feel like I fell in love for the first time. Since reconciling, our relationship is a loving partnership. I am beyond blessed!!
Iʼve felt most fulfilled in positions where I was helping others, some of my trainings and experiences:
- 2008 Martha Beck (MBI) Life Coach Training
2009 got Certified with MBI
2011 got my Master Certification with MBI
- 2012 MindBody Coach Training with Anamsong
- 2013 Reiki Master Certification
2013 Hospice Volunteer Training through EvergreenHealth Hospice
- 2014 Shift Your Grief with Martha Jo Atkins PhD
2014 Priestess Studies with Lisa Michaels and Vanessa Sage PhD
- 2016 Earth Medicine School (1, 2, 3) with Pixie Lighthorse
- 2017 INELDA End of Life Doula training
2017 Understanding Spiritual Pain through The Sacred Art of Living
Through the years I found myself in search of something more yet feeling guilty. I had the devoted husband, healthy children, warm home, nice cars – what was wrong? I was taking care of everyone else and found I didnʼt love or know myself, and I didnʼt even realize it. Once I discovered this, I started a relationship with myself again. I got intimate and befriended myself. Now, I can’t imagine a life without myself in a deep sense of unconditional love. How I treat myself is a reflection of how I treat others and ask others to treat me. Sacred. Holy. Meaningful.
That being said, 2015 surprised me with a hard period lasting a year and a half. Yes, even with all this knowledge and practice in living a soulful and sacred life, life happened. I went through a deep depression, had chronic back pain—later diagnosed as degenerative disc disease, watched my oldest child struggle through a life challenge, and lost my hope in women’s circles after a bad experience. Isn’t it refreshing to know we are all human. I found myself saying, “I don’t feel like me, this isn’t me!” to my husband often. Hello perimenopause. Oh the emotions. And then I reached out. I let myself be held and supported. I began to heal.
Life is my medicine. I do my best to notice what I need and ask for I want. I continue to create meaning, make memories, and generally slow down – I don’t want to miss a thing! But I do and that’s ok.
Thank you for learning a little more about me. I’d love to learn more about you. Reach out for a Free Consult or Grief Connection Call.
ps~ one of my favorite exercises I did early on in my coaching career was discover my Style Statement, take a peek here! To this day it hasn’t changed. I deeply connect to my Style Statement, Natural Expressive.
Some fun things about me…
Playing practical (good humored) jokes on each other makes me laugh. The element of surprise. My husband and kids donʼt always think itʼs as funny.
The Voice makes me cry. The talent, the dreams, the goosebumps.
I love the sun on my back, being barefoot, dirty feet, sitting by fires, laughter and music… just a few of my many loves.
My gift is being with death, grief and the grieving. I love honoring the end of life and those who have passed, and walking alongside those left behind. I can’t think of a greater gift.
I am always taking a course and reading a book, I can’t get enough.
One regret dear world, that I am determined not to have
when I am lying on my deathbed
is that I did not kiss you enough. ~Hafiz