I recently wrote about leaving my marriage. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.
Surviving 2015 was right up there with it.
And yet there are gifts in the sucky days, weeks, months, and years.
It feels so damn good to feel like my old (yet new) self again. I’m picking up doing the things that bring me joy… like finding the perfect card for the special people in my life, getting outside in nature, noticing what I want and asking for what I need.
What I love most is watching myself slowly add back in only that which fills me up. In this space, giving to others fills me up rather than depleting me.
Only recently have I been able to sink into the deep reverence and gratitude for the depth, despair, and depression I felt in 2015. It brought me here. To experience an emptying so cleansing and freeing… it leaves me nearly speechless. I can’t find the exact words, so for now, I will sit in this felt experience. Grateful. In awe.
#meaningfulliving #deeplygrateful #homeagain
*originally posted on Instagram