I miss my little boy but oh how I love to talk about him. xo little one
This was a line in my first journal entry for Calvin. I remember how I wanted to share him with anyone and everyone. Yet I was met with confusion and uncomfortableness. Others didn’t know what to say, do or how to react.
Note from my ‘current self’ to my ‘grieving self’: Thank you! Thank you for honoring your want and need to talk about your boy. I know many were not comfortable with this but you knew what you wanted and needed!
I wanted to talk about him… how much I missed him, loved him, how active he was in my belly, what I’d never get to experience being his mom, him being my boy, what I wished I could have told him, how I wished I could have seen his precious eyes open or felt his little fingers wrap around pinky. I needed to tell others. My journal was one place I could do this freely.
Another line… your daddy & I talk about you often. Your daddy is so wonderful, he comforts me when I’m sad and thinking about you.
Journaling can be a beautiful companion and comfort when you’re grieving.
Prompts & Ideas
- What do I want and need as I walk with grief?
- Who is able to be with me during me and my grief without judgment? (i.e. family, friends, support group, therapist)
- What do I wish from others? That they would ask me about my son. That they ask how they could honor him and me. That they didn’t know what to say…