May 2020 {love note}
May you remember to see beauty, believe in the good, rest deeply, and dance often!
xox, jen
Hello Beautiful Soul,
How are you doing these days? We are weeks into quarantine. Stay at home orders are slowly lifting around the world. Here in Washington we are asked to wear masks while out in public. My husband has been able to golf again. I am wondering if I’ll ever leave the house.
I am a homebody. I have created a sanctuary here. The spaces we have to “be” and “do” are nourishing. Over the past month we’ve had a mix of weather from 50-80º. Mother’s Day weekend I was loved up by my kids, all living elsewhere. My love and I sat out back a lot and watched shows on our new outdoor projector. We caught up on SGN, watched Jerry Seinfeld’s new comedy special on Netflix, and I got my husband the see last episode of The Morning Show.
In my last love note, I invited you to join me for a free Yoga Nidra session. I neglected to mention it was my first time leading Yoga Nidra, as part of a facilitator training. (side note: I’ve led lots of intuitively guided meditations, not Yoga Nidra) It definitely felt clunky AND I love that I did it anyway.
Do I hope it disappears from the hands who received it, why yes I do! AND YET… I’m offering it again on the Gemini New Moon. This time, a moment of rest with extra space, a softer tone, and soothing guidance.
While it wasn’t my favorite ‘first time’ offering, there was a sense of “I did it!” I haven’t had that feeling in awhile. Much to my surprise, the next day, Brené Brown spoke about this feeling on The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. She called it the juice. Oh, how I’m ready for the juice in my life once again.
What else? Well, a few Mondays ago I woke feeling off. I felt edgy. What happens when I feel edgy, I’m annoyed that I feel that way and don’t want to feel it. So it becomes bigger. Yet this time I was aware. I remembered, I am not my emotions, they are just visitors. I sat with edgy. I returned to being The Guest House. Then I opened up my book, The Daily Seed, turned to a random page for some wisdom, this is what it said…
“When you find yourself negatively fast-forwarding to the future and comparing the worst-case scenario to a challenge you’re currently experiencing, or making up stories about what other people are going to say or how they will react and building more fear that causes anxiety, panic, and confusion, I invite you to stop the spiraling madness by asking yourself this question:
What are the best possible outcomes?
Give yourself permission to be open to the possibility that things can be different than what you’re projecting them to be.”
Then there are days like today. I woke naturally at 5:50am, listening to a live 6am yoga nidra from the comfort of bed. Feeling rooted in love, I made my way to the kitchen letting the smell of fresh brewed coffee fill my senses. I enjoyed my cup of coffee on the porch while the sun sneaked around the corner of my home, finding it’s way to my face. With Pooch at my feet we welcomed the morning, the day, the week.
May this next month bless you with it’s unexpected gifts and may you be open to see them. And remember… be kind, to yourself and others.
With abundant grace, deep gratitude, and loads of love,
xox
My personal invitations/offerings for you…
A Moment of Rest
Friday, May 22nd, the Gemini New Moon
A few of my favorite things…
This poem… often.
This shifted everything on one of those off days I was having.
Want to feel good? I’m not about avoiding unpleasant emotions AND I do like to feel good and smile. These moments of goodness made me tear up, warmed my heart, and made me remember to see the helpers and beauty during the pandemic.
What are you dreaming about these days? Me, THIS!
What I read this past month… a lot of people’s stories! Goldie. Drew. And Janine. I loved Goldie and Drew’s. Janine’s was written well, I just didn’t grow up knowing her like I did Goldie and Drew. I’m a hippie at heart. Next up… Freckled.
We are all just walking each other home.
Ram Dass
